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Y quizás no deba decirte esto pero cada vez que ocurre lo de ayer mi psicosis se activa. Siento la horrible necesidad de ponerme en todos los casos por si llegase a decir algo que no deba, porque si él dice una de esas palabras que ya me son niñerías, yo me quiebro por dentro, es por ello que necesito ponerme en todos los casos, para mostrarme firme y traspasarle esa firmeza que tanta falta le hace. Por eso hoy cuando desperté en la mañana tomé "niebla" de Unamuno y lo leí, porque en estos momentos busco inspiración, ayuda, consejo en todas partes. Para mi desgracia el libro me psicoseó más, me hizo sentir a Augusto como a él, a mi como a Eugenia y a ella como Rosario. Todo gracias a una palabra: "Terminamos". they're done, they broke up, they're nothing but ex (again). And that makes me so confused. That's why I'm praying God to make them together again, anyway her birthday is in two days, I'd really like them to be happy by then. It's not that I'm confused about myself, 'cause I'm not, I'm confused about himself. 'Cause he's the doubtful one. He's the one who sometimes things,i'm her ex-girlfriend... and I really do hate that. I've always tried to introduce myself as her best friend, but he doesn't see me like that. The day we make the promise to stay in contact, I know he did it for my own mental health, but not 'cause he really felt it that way. That's why he always runs away from me everytime they broke up, 'cause even he doesn't belive his own lie. I'd really like that promise to stay true... 'cause i'm no longer tolerated into lies...